This is going to be a bit of a personal one, but I think it needs to be said. I’ve not been feeling great about myself for a little while now, and I’m finally ready to make a change. I’ve been overweight and unhappy with myself for a while. I have an unhealthy relationship with food, and I lack motivation to work out. Sometimes, for a span of about 2 months, I get really focused and get myself to the gym or work out with a trainer, but more often than not, you can find me sitting on the couch with a cup of sugary tea and a bar of chocolate, comparing myself to women who I perceive to be skinnier, prettier, and generally just better than me. Being a blogger, I love meeting people, and going to events, and all the great stuff that comes with it, but sometimes I find myself comparing who I am to who they are. Why is my hair frizzy and theirs is so perfectly quaffed? Why do clothes never look as good on me as they do on them? Why can I never pull that off? Well, I’ve made the decision to stop that nonsense. I want to change how I view myself. I love blogging and sharing things with the people who read my blog, so if I can’t be honest on here, well, what’s the point? It took me a long time to feel comfortable in my own skin, but it’s still a work in progress.
I’m on an upswing at the moment. I’ve joined a gym (one that a few of my friends also go to, so I can buddy up and have more reason to go), and I’m trying to eat a bit healthier (some days are better than others). However, instead of obsessing about how much I’m working out, calorie counting and being frustrated with the number on the scale, I would like to set a few different goals for myself:
I resolve to be nicer to myself and work on loving myself, regardless of my size.
I resolve to embrace myself and try harder to stop comparing myself to other people. I’m great the way I am!
I resolve to set attainable goals and not put too much pressure on myself regarding my weight. It’s not about how much weight I lose or gain. It’s about how I feel in my skin.
I resolve to look in the mirror and like myself for exactly who I am, and what I know I can be.
I’m in the midst of planning my wedding (technically already married, but still planning a wedding… long story) and I keep thinking that the woman who stands there in a few months, exchanging vows and promising in sickness and in health to love, well, she should be a bit happier with herself. I’m really lucky to have a wonderful and supportive man in my life who makes me feel loved, and who isn’t afraid of giving me a little tough love when I need it. He accepts me for who I am, so why can’t I accept myself? I’ve never been thin, I’ve always had frizzy hair, I’ve always been this person. I think it’s time that I really work on loving myself again, stop worrying about the things I can’t do, and strive for greatness with the things I can!
It all starts here. It’s a journey… and so far, it’s looking bright!